essecenes of charlotte

Memories!!

2007-01-19T06:02:00.000-08:00

It's hard when someone you love dies
because you don't want to say good-bye,
You may feel confused,upset or sad
and maybe sometimes a little mad

But you must remember
the times you had together....
Memories

Memories will last forever
And so you'll always be together,
deeo down inside your heart,
eventhough you're far apart.

Abused!!

2007-01-19T05:54:00.000-08:00

My body is sweaty
Nervous,
In fear of your anger
I walk,
Down the hall
I hear,
You screaming
The door squeeks,
As it opens
There you are,
With your mad face
Now,
You take out on me
You slash adn punch at me
I didnt do it
But you didnt care
Then,
One day i ran away
Away from your anger,
And up the golden stairways of Heaven.

MASK

2007-01-19T05:49:00.000-08:00

Every day i wear a mask
To cover up the fear
to hide the insecurities
Which are unwelcome here
I want them all to be fooled
I hope no one can see,
This mask i put on to hide
My personality.
Once i tried to take it off
To show what i hid inside.
But it seemed no one understood
And much preferred the lies.....

A New Year leads to a new start...

2006-12-31T19:06:00.000-08:00

im so happy that im not gonna move to bording school,im just gonna stay in my old school but im gonna have to consentrate more on my studies this year coz im gonna take add math and all the medical subjects....well that means no more fundays for me,:'(..but if i pass all this subject it will be worth the hard work..hehehe..oh yah..HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

i thought you understand.......

2006-12-22T07:30:00.000-08:00

yeah im feeling so damn lonley coz my cousin had to go to kk for x'mas and im gonna have a BLUE CHRISTMAS!!yeah cyn im gonna have a blue x'mas without you and i'll be so bored and lonley without you....anybody reading this please give me somthing ok..i ment like respond or somthing ok....how will you feel if your dad said to one of his siblings that"why cant you be like your brother/sister??"please give me some advise now my cuzy is not here she cant give me any advise and so im hoping any of you can..............thanks heaps

2006-12-21T07:21:00.000-08:00

ohhhhhhh got a total headache.......and feelin so sad......coz i heared somthing that i did not like,i cant really discribe myself now coz im really into the situation that i want to just go die all that
coz people around me is just so damn pissin me off....so well yeah thats what i feel man....

SHE thinks im useless!!!

2006-12-17T06:48:00.000-08:00

When she found going out with friends was great they stopped her,when she found doing cool activities with her close ones/love ones they also stopped her.......everything she find exiting and fun to do will always be stopped by THEM!!one night she came home after going out with some friends,they scold her and blamed her for everything she didn't do,she didn't know what to do so she fought back and told them off but they kept on going on about her trying to copy somebody else and not being herself.....she couldn't take it and fought back with all her might and she never stopped untill they were really hurt......as she sleep that night she heard they were talking and crying because of her and that was when she broke down and the next day all of them with baggy eyes......acted as if nothing happened but they never spoke...she never apolagise and they never cared.....now she's suffering of lonliness and realised that all the time they were right and she was wrong.

got me twisted!!1

2006-12-15T08:03:00.000-08:00

listening to irriplaceable.........kinda bored and happy at the same time,bored coz im sick and sleepy happy coz christmas is near.....well who isn't happy when x'mas is near right..hahaha had fun just now going crazy with my cousin cyn....hehe we were damn bored so we ate some sweets and went hyper.........hehehe.....and she made bluberry muffins and it taste good.....im new to this so teach me ok

buhbye

2006-12-14T23:57:00.000-08:00

muhhahahaha my first blog hahaha not really its cynthia just blogging this so we can chnage her skin hehe.
xoxo
ciao